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Righteous! What an awesome summer! Campers, friends, God. The trifecta that really keeps me growing.
I'm glad to be back to writing- I think I learned even more how to pour my heart out in relateable and expressive new ways :)

But normally I don't even have the time to do that via internet, I simply have time to drop an idea on paper so that I can save it forever.  That's actually what I'm going to do now.

My friend, God bless her, basically said she was getting a massage.  My response was, "I'm jealous, you'd be surprised of who though."  Right, I'm jealous of the one giving the massage, I said.  She asked me why that is and I replied "Because I want all good things to come from me."

That has definitely been a big part of my running theme for the summer.  God has definitely taught me to let a lot of things find their place in Him, whether it be my pain, my depression, or whatever else I've learned I can't manage on my own.  Unfortunately, there are still a lot of things I haven't trusted Him to be for me- and perfect is one of them.  It's been amazing how much stress I've been carrying around just trying to be perfect, and, as much as that isn't right, I never quite knew that I could give God even that part of me I've been trying to be for Him.

The stress from trying to be perfect comes from the fact that we are not, and my idea of perfection has never truly been "One is perfect when they are truly themselves" Which it may be closer to being now, but no, it's been based on how the culture reacts to me.  If I'm not perfect in my love for others, than I am not perfect in God's eyes I thought.  How wrong could I be! I'm never going to be perfect, but it's the faith to let God work through you that is given as righteousness- He is the only perfect thing so drawing to Him to be perfect where you fall short takes a lot of stress off of one's heart.