Blindness

I learned today that life has a big picture plan for you.  All the time spent being miserable is time spent killing the things that make you miserable.  Experiences I would never ask to have over again because they were my choices, my mistakes.  They only create in me a hatred for the path I chose, inspiring in me a reason to never choose it again.

I want to see the world again, relearn how to live like I am not led by my emptiness.  To observe the world as it is, not as I want it to be.  I am also not meant to see the world as it could be or should be.  I am a scientist.  The world must be only as it is and I must learn to be alright with that.

Most of the time, when I sit and think- my eyes lose focus on the world and my head becomes the only thing I know.  I find myself only wanting, and through that, I only see the things I want.

This is blindness.