The Unapproachable Problem

It comes about subtly, a thought does, a good one I mean.  Sometimes, after a long time of hiding from yourself, from the world, the ocean of echoing noise comes in, or out, I'm not sure.  Either way, it touches you.  Leaves you overwhelmed.  Life just gets more dense for a while, there is meaning in every little thing and there is nothing that isn't a part of you in some distant but sentimental way. 
It's a feeling, and it's beautiful, unlike so many others it's right- but it's the hardest one to find.  Life is simple, flat. Instead of the crags and valleys, mountains or vacant lots.  Life becomes an ocean, dynamic and yet so peaceful.  Enormity contained.  For some strange reason, you are not yourself, you are everything created, because you are subject to one Creator.  One manifest greatness that makes your world no different than the one you are living in.  The one you were born to live in.  When every hurdle is vaulted and there is no great climb, no great race, there's just a peace you needed-

That ain't gonna last.

It's just a taste of what life should be.  It's life without the painful living that comes with it.  It's a call for you to hear and know, so that there is no settling for less- there is no misbelief that what you have now is better than all there is.  Eternity is waiting for us, heaven or hell, and there is no one who doesn't believe that life can be a little bit of both, but all of neither.  So the race begins again, and the fight starts for the heaven that we know, or, the drought returns, and what happens is we leave our thirst for the life that is just-

living and safe and easy.

Evil was never defeated.  Many battles won, but the war was always lost.  Every step I took on my own was only deeper into enemy territory.  I was mapping it out, getting to know firsthand what I was up against as I walked farther down a road to inevitable defeat.  How long would it have been until I found a problem I couldn't handle?  Where does that leave me?  Only deep into enemy territory.  I try to justify by saying that many I know have gone down that path- that these hurdles are in their way too and they need to be able to approach them.  For what purpose though? These problems could be there to help us see the joy we could have on the other path.  Instead of walking down the path the world has for us, maybe we can see all that God has in store if we just turn to Him?  I don't want to help anyone walk farther down the broad path, for many have chosen it, and I've learned to trust that it can only lead to destruction.