Abundance

How many of you have ever dealt with having too much?

Well the grocery store had a special where I could get free milk if I got four cereals; I like to eat organic :) So I got four cereals and my free milk.  Not to mention I had a box of cereal at home already.  Abundance! Cereal is abundant.  But when I do not have cereal, I've been eating mainly vegetables, I've been feeling full and satisfied even despite the not-so-strong taste. But now I have cereal, and last night I wallowed in my abundance, I had so many bowls of cereal I'm down about an entire box and a half!

I know this is not necessarily the worst thing I can engorge myself with, but I still definitely feel the effects of that certain lack of self-control.  The thought of myself being a lazy, over-consumptive American has basically been verified right here and now.  Which there is nothing wrong with consuming a lot, I feel, as long as you can be productive with it afterwards.  Like, there is nothing wrong with being obsessed with sports, if you are trying to make the game better and safer and stuff, but if you just take that knowledge and grow "fat" with your indulgence, there is definitely a problem.

I long to be productive with what I consume, though what we do with our lives often has no substance.  Yes, I brought "we" into this, mostly because I don't want to feel alone, and I don't want to just be talking about myself.  You are my readers and friends! I really hope that you have substance in your life, but let's face it, this is America! Where television is one of the greatest abuses of time and resources ever.  We have so much directed at pleasing ourselves, we get no lasting effect but the memory of what it felt like to be high. And, in turn, the present feeling of being o so low.

Such is life.  I woke up this morning asking myself if I could possibly be bipolar.  I think I just answered myself in that last paragraph.  My emotions are constantly going up and down.  Whereas I am not searching for true substance but instead, that natural high, the one that comes from just indulging in abundance with no substance, and consumption with no production.