Hear me out

Push.  You used to push yourself, harder than anyone else- in a direction you thought no one had gone before.  To figure depression out- to be the one that could heal the masses.  You were tired, even when you shouldn't be.  You'd go to sleep exhausted and open your eyes to the same tiredness that drove you to bed.

This is not fatigue, this is depression.  Fighting a losing battle all the time.  Yet it's such a better option to you than looking around and seeing no one fighting it at all.  Living life for what it is, people being awful and cruel and continuing to get worse.  Watch as we let it happen, watch as nobody cares enough to fight it.

It is too exhausting to want to change the world yourself, the more you burden yourself with duty, the less you are able to deal with it.  So do I recommend ignoring what you know in your heart needs to change? No, not at all.  Your heart longs for good, and all you know is this world isn't all good, even if it has been for you, you know there are many out there who are feeling the exact same way you were.  Misery is tough to escape.  It's not something you can shake off and leave behind.  It's always there for someone else to pick up.  It's always looking for another life to poison.

So lay your burdens down my friend. 

In the hands of someone you can trust-

if that's yourself, so be it,

but you'll drop it soon enough. 

You'll recover for sure, you'll try to dribble again. 

You'll fight till death overtakes you

before you see an end.

 

God longs for you to have rest in Him.  If you don't feel comforted in God's arms, you don't know Him.  The Bible, to me, has been inspiration lately, a goal of sorts.  I'm not Christ, I'm far from Him- yet He promises to carry my burdens if I take up a real relationship with Him.  He has taken my burdens.  I'm still in this fight, just with God by my side, or should I say "as my lead"? 

 

If you are burdened under God, that is not where you need to be- cast your cares upon Him because He cares for you.  That means we don't have to defend ourselves- not with God as our shield.  Knowing Him and knowing that what He says is true is the best defense to any unloving attack.

 

Wherever you go for comfort, that is your god.  Christ won't fail you- even when you feel He has, all things work out for the good of those who love Him.  The ultimate good, not the selfish good.  We are all people, and none should be bound by the chains of depression.  There is freedom to be who you are, found in God's word and exemplified by Christ.